I AM CONSTANTLY REACHING FOR WHAT IS UNATTAINABLE― PROMISES OF BETTER DAYS LEAVING MY LIPS AT EVERY TURN, FIBERGLASS DREAMS CRUMBLE BEFORE MY EYES. I DO NOT ASK WHY THE UNIVERSE WORKS THIS WAY. I INSTEAD GIVE THANKS THAT I AM BUT A SPECK IN A SKY OF ZILLIONS, BRILLIANT LIGHTS THAT DROWN OUT MY TROUBLES. I CLOSE MY EYES AND GIVE MYSELF TO THAT SKY AND SUDDENLY MY HEAD IS MUCH HIGHER THAN THE CLOUDS― UP AMONG THE STARS IS WHERE YOU WILL FIND MY MIND, BEDAZZLED BY NOSTALGIA AND WHISPERS OF YESTERDAY
HAILING FROM SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA, JUNG SOOJUNG AKA KRYSTAL IS BEST KNOWN AS THE LEAD VOCALIST, MAKNAE, AND FACE OF POPULAR SOUTH KOREAN GIRL GROUP F(X). AT TWENTY-THREE YEARS OLD, SHE IS A VETERAN OF THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY, FIRST APPEARING IN ADS AND MVS AT SIX YEARS OLD. OFTEN MISTAKEN AS “ICY” DUE TO HER COLD LOOKS, SM ENT’S PRINCESS PROVES TO TRULY BE SHY AND SOFTSPOKEN. ACTIVE AS A MODEL AND AN ACCOMPLISHED ACTRESS, OFTEN FOUND WITH ELDER SISTER JESSICA JUNG OR HASSLING HER MEMBERS. BREAD AND MANGO LOVER, ASTRONOMY ENTHUSIAST, AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, SECRET WIFE AND MOTHER OF TWO.
【―💫 ❞】i’m off for the day- everything i haven’t replied to yet is drafted for me to do tomorrow, catch me on aim from here on out today @stardust.exe!!
【―💫 ❞】going to hide on aim for the rest of today- everything will get done tomorrow !! if you’d like to talk drop your aim here or come keep me company ( @stardust.exe !! ) even if we’ve never spoken, it’s totally okay. promise i’m just a big meme.
【―💫 ❞】i have things to go do today, so all my other replies will be done tomorrow- i’ll be on aim for the day, leave me your aims or hit me up ( @stardust.exe ) !!
【―💫 ❞】the sound of a crying infant was the first thing that krystal heard on liberation day, early on in the humid morning. blinking herself awake, she stumbled down the hall to aurora’s nursery, always quick to respond to her three month old’s wails, no matter what the time. and there she lay, kicking her tiny feet under her blanket furiously, yelling for attention from her young mother.
❝ shhh, mama’s here, ❞ krystal murmured softly, carefully pulling her daughter into her arms, close to her chest, hoping a bit of bouncing and comfort would soothe her- and it seemed to be working, aurora’s cries quickly became quieter, and, still holding her, krys made her way to turn on a lamp, carefully gathering a fresh onesie with one hand, setting the baby down to change her as her samoyed puppy marched into the room, tail wagging as he had heard all the commotion. whilst caring for the little one, krys managed to glance up at the calendar on the wall, catching sight of the date. ❝ hmm, happy independence day, aurora, ❞ she cooed, buttoning up the little onesie. ❝ you’re not so independent yet, baby, but don’t worry … ❞ her eyes moved to the photo of a smiling jaeseop also hanging on the wall. ❝ … mama’s still learning too. ❞ damn it jae, i wish you were here.
it had only been a few months since the death of her husband, and krystal still felt much like she was drowning. never one to be totally independent in her own mind, she always relied on others, growing up- from her sister, to her members, to her friends, to her husband- and now that the most vital pillar of support was no longer alive, every day was a struggle in itself. and though she wanted to lean on someone, krys knew that she had to learn to manage her life on her own, though the task was daunting. ❝ you and aurora will be just fine. ❞ her husband’s confidence in her, even with his dying words, drove her every morning, and they were on her mind as she settled aurora in her little reclining high chair, moving around the kitchen to find breakfast for them both, the dog sitting at her feet, hoping for his own food as she spoke, despite knowing the baby didn’t understand.
❝ your daddy was so confident in us, star child. confident in me, even though he knew that i’m the least independent person. even before you were born, he always told mama that she wasn’t as dependent as she saw herself. maybe he was right, but … i don’t know. i guess i depend on your godfather sometimes, but, look at me … getting up and taking care of your tiny lil baby self, all on my own, and the cats, the bunny, and this big doof. ❞ she reaches down to pet the puppy’s head. ❝ i couldn’t have done all that before … but i miss your appa. ❞
and so they sat, aurora mostly playing with her baby cereal as krystal slowly sipped on a coffee, tossing some treats to the puppy. ❝ i think we are gonna be fine, aurora. you and i, we’re going to learn to get better at independence together … but today, let’s see what aunt jess and your cousin are up to instead. ❞
hey guys- i’m bored and definitely in the mood to make friends, so come add and love me on aim ( @stardust.exe ) or drop your aims so i can bug you, please and thank you !!
I had to shut the aim app on my phone for half a second, and aim shut me out completely. Giving me that ‘server is down’ bullshit on my phone, ipod, lifestream, computer app and web version so.. I suppose find me through tumblr messages til aim gets its shit together and lets me in. -__-
